Diva Day 2019
(I am going to keep this one short)
Today, just before 9:30am I turn a whole quarter of a century. Technically, I am still young, but I feel so old. It’s funny because as a child it’s hard to imagine life past 25. And I must admit I am NOWHERE near where I thought I would be in life.
According to adolescent diva, I am to be married to a beautiful rich man. We are madly in love, with a child (a little girl named Jada), living in a mansion. I’d have a college degree and would be rich and famous, living somewhere bright and sunny. I'd be tatted and my first tattoo was to be some cherries on my lower right hip. I hated my name and wanted to change it to something like "Claire." I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up, I just knew I’d be (or at least wanted to be) successful because, after all, my name does mean "One Who Succeeds." (Even though I didn't like my name I knew the meaning was lit)
Grown diva, is single as a pringle with no future prospects. I have a college degree in graphic design. I still have no idea what I want to be “when I grow up?” In fact, (funny story) I am unemployed right now, still trying to figure life out. I no longer want children or to be famous and I don't have any tattoos. I am far from rich but I’d like to think I am on my way.
There are many ways that I am much different than I’d imagine myself to be today, as I did when I was just a lil shawty. However, I am proud to say I love me (and my name) and the woman I am becoming. I am not where I want to be but I think I can finally say I am on the right path. God shook some shit up in my life this past year and I now have a little more understanding about where I am supposed to be in this world. && that is all I can ask for.
My health is good, my credit score is straight. My support circle is amazing. I am cute, stomach still flat. (&& Working on getting the booty phat)
I have so much to be grateful for and I am!
Cheers to 25!
P.S. I told myself I wasn't going to celebrate any more birthdays until 30 but ... lol I wanted to go skydiving but it's too cold. So instead I am going to brunch and a day party, maybe hit up the spa or something tomorrow!